há dias em que nem toda a poesia do mundo seria suficiente para te arrancar de mim.

"I'll leave you alone forever now. I'll leave you like a comet leaves the outer space to meet the earth and never go back. But I will be thinking about you everyday, and I'll miss everything we never had. Everything that my brain created while you were somewhere else, thinking about the prettier things. Thinking about the happier, less blue things."
- Daulina Ismaili

True Story

Era uma vez uma menina que amava um menino que não sabia receber amor. The End

That.

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"Querer estar apaixonado" e "estar apaixonado", são duas coisas diferentes. Lá está, não é para quem quer, é só para quem pode. Lamento...

Hoje fui voar e correu bem. 

Somebody I used to know

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Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Somebody, I used to know
(Somebody) Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Somebody, I used to know
(Somebody) Now you're just somebody that I used to know
I used to know, that I used to know, I used to know somebody

Começou 2017

O porto-seguro morreu. Foi destruído pela tua mão e eu não vou voltar a reconstrui-lo para ti. Lamento muito. Muito mesmo.

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O príncipe azul chamado pinocchio com olhos de menino triste a mentir sobre o amor...

Estou a voltar a mim e melhor, mais consciente, mais madura, mais forte. Estou, finalmente, a sentir que estou a voltar.

Este véu de tristeza que teima em não ir embora...

A mentira estraga e suja tudo! Deixa um cheiro a merda que por mais que se lave nunca sai, nunca mais. Impregna tudo de mau cheiro e vazio - o novo e o velho; inunda as memórias transformando-as violenta e irreversivelmente!

Odeio a mentira! Odeio-te a ti que me envenenaste as memórias.

Há várias maneiras de viver a vida. A minha escolha é a da verdade. Não será a mais fácil, mas é a única que me encaixa.

O que mais me vem falar sobre ti é a maneira como cicatrizas as tuas feridas.

Quem nasce sem tomates, tarde ou nunca se aproveita.

Ass.: A horta

...

"Do i love you or do I just love me in love?"

"It's raining inside"

"My little sweetheart"

Nunca mais quero ser guardiã dos sonhos do outro. Quando vier desta vez, tem de vir por inteiro. Todo.

Ontem descobri, outra vez e da pior maneira, que não existes de verdade e só mesmo dentro de mim. No meu coração, cabeça e fantasia. Ontem fiz mais um bocadinho de luto.